merry christmas...belated

so this is a good time of year for everyone. well that is if you have someone to spend it with of course. i am sorry if you do not you can always spend it with me if you are reading this then i am sure you know me and then that works hahahahahaha.

what can i say i crack myself up. it has certainly beena while and i am sure most people thought that i fell off the face of the earth. well i am here to tell you that i did not and i am just fine, well a little older, wiser, stronger, and more cynical but other than that the same old me. you just have to love it.

well it was nice gettin back from school and getting to catch up with other people. like liz for example, i do talk to her ona fairly regular basis via email but it was just nice to see her, and her new hair, and braces. it gave us time to catch up on everything that we did not put in our emails because that would take way too long to type. di, drexel says hey. speaking of di, she gave me a really hard time for not coming earlier to visit her and that made me smile.

i am ejoying the break that i am having from life, but i have learned that you really cannot take a complete break from life. one of these days i will discover that secret and then i will be the best person in the world. hahahaha.

seriously though i love life for the most part and that is a good thing. granted there were a few and sometimes large bumps in the road bti think that i handled all of them in the best possible way and became a better person for that.

i wish my picture CD did not get scratched because now i cannot post any of them and i am sad so now i have to take more pictures. well that really is not that bad of a problem to have now is it?

it feels good to write something on here again. oh yea and i think that you should check out one of my best friends sites he has one too. it is a new addition to the links portion of this page. well until we meet again

FOCKER OUT!

if you did not see the movie that will not be funny

if i want to...

everytime i look up i can see it in your face you wanna hook up with me. instead of actin like your supposed to, you cop an attitude like you're too good for me.

and you know good and damn well that if i want it i can take you from your man, with my eyes closed. i could have you eatin out of the palm of my hand, and all your little girlfriends too.

girl-no you can't get with me if i don't want you

yes i can if i will if i want to baby.

ain't nobody tryin clown you, but your too damn old to play high school games with me. cause even when im not around you i be hearin from my friends you be askin about me. i don't really care how long you've been together with your man. it's just a matter of time before i make you mine. i wanna make it clear, so there is no misunderstanding, that i get, what i want, when i want.

if i want it i can take you from your man, with my eyes closed. i could have you eatin out of the palm of my hand, and all your little girlfriends too.

girl-no you can't get with me if i don't want you

yes i can if i will if i want to baby.

that i get, what i want, when i want.

if i want it i can take you from your man, with my eyes closed. i could have you eatin out of the palm of my hand, and all your little girlfriends too.

girl-no you can't get with me if i don't want you

yes i can if i will if i want to baby.

study time

that is right, finals are drawing closer and closer and that is what i will be doing all week. if you have not heard from me in a while that is probably the reason.

this will be it for me and so i am making the last effort to make sure my grades do not plummit. i think that will not be all that hard but hey you never know what life might throw your way and so i just think i will try and prepare for the worst. i think that is a pretty good way of approaching things right now so i think that i will do it like that.

hmm it is off to the lab for me.

it's been a long time

wow it seems like forever since the last time that i have put anything up. it is a shame i think that i really need to get back into the swing of things. this has been such an interesting semester for me i must say that this one tops all of the other ones.

that is no small feet too, because freshman year i was the roommate of the kid that stole playstations and sold them on ebay. my favorite was that he took a chain that i had and my camera dock and sold them too. it was funny because i did want to know where he got all of his money since he did not work and his parents did not send him money.

then sophomore year i had about 700 dollars worth of clothing a shoes stolen. one who has that many clothes at college, this kid, and two why would someone do that, because they were trying to get me back for what i still do not understand to this day, because i really was not that mean to the kids that did this. as a matter of fact i would help them out with all sorts of things.

but i will not lie this year takes the cake. i guess i am not as ready to speak about it as openly as the last too, granted they were much more comical than this year.

oh yea and finding a job, so much harder to do this year than any other year. i swear it is the most difficult thing i have ever done. well that is about it.

thanksgiving was awesome. i have never eaten so much in my life and that is tough because i eat so much it would probably make a fat person sick. hahahaha college humor sorry. but it was good, if i could ever get my pics online then i would be able to show what some of them looked like. but it just is not working.

to all back home i miss talkin with you. and i think mabye i will drop by when i get back.

initation

well it is offical, we have finished the initiation of six great men into our chapter. i am very excited and very tired but the dowsiness will fade.

it was a grand experience watching them grow in the fraternity and as young men. why am i talking like i am old, shoot i am still growing as a young man. well it is easier to watch and see the changes in someone else than it is to see in yourself, that is one thing that i did learn.

but it is great i have not been this excited for a while and now my little brother can wear letters, that is right that i got him. what can i say i am an awesome big. but we can save that for another day.

i am starting to grow a little migrane so i think that this is the end for the time being.

time

well here i am. just chillin here waiting for someting to happen.

i have noticed that when i try for some oddreason everythign just gets messed up right now. mabye right i will take some time and just let some things just happen to me. i am curious to see how that willl end up.

i am just tired right now of everything i just want to relax. and i do not mean kicking off my shoes and having a beer. no i am talking about a break from everythig so that my brain can just calm down and i can be at peace.

well that will not happen for a very long time, so i guess i will have to find a new way to get by. because right now the insomnia is a pain and i do not know how much longer i can take it.

well for the thrid attempt at sleep.

i miss

i miss...

movies,
long walks with friends,
talking with my younger, little, and big brother,
peace,
quite nights,
freedom,
no stress,
SLEEP,
food,
joy,
everything...

life is hard right now.

busy

so yea i have been so busy i would sit down and think "right now i do not have time to sit here and breathe." well hopefully next week will not be so bad or else i will go crazy.

but it is nice to have enough time just to sit here and type something. i like it. well i think that is all i have time for.

roses are red violets are blue, you are mean and i am too.

its been a long time...

so this has been really interesting. i have never had a little brother (not to be confused with younger brother) before. i did not think that i would be able to handle it. but then i talked to my big brother (not to be confused with older because i am the oldest) and he told me that i was ready.

well i know that does not sound like a big thing to any ordinary person but i guess it really is because he is more critical than me. wow what a shock to find someone more critical than me. for everyone laughing try not to get too loud.

but so i embark on this journey with my little brother and it will be an interesting one. i have learned to balance time and his needs with the needs of myself and have become quite successful at it.

it has been a long time since i have put something up here and that is strange but oh well what can you do now. this is going to be a good week i can tell already i do not know why yet but i know it will be. well i gots to get ready to have an awesome day.

movies

i have a rather large collection of movies that i am quite fond of. i have all types. you know scary, murders/criminal, romantic, comedy, mysteries, fantasies, and even sinister ones.

i love them all because i love movies. if i could i would like to take ebert or ropert's place and be a film critic and that would be awesome.

if i could get paid for watching movies that is all that i would do. life could not be any better. well i guess it could but i think that i would have a great time.

well enough about that but i could go on forever about how much i love movies and what not. if you ever wanna talk you know where to find me.

these are the times...

god knows that you're a sexy thing. its takin everything in me not to kiss you over under, feel you inside feel my thunder. how the hel could i not want you.

girl you don't have to be a thing, i'll wait for you, you wait for me. cuz true love's insisting, we don't have to rush at all.

these are the times we all wish for, the moment when less means so much more. we don't have to do a thing at all, we can take our time and talk. and this is the way things need to be no pressure for you and none for me. just let the mood set the moment off, wecan make love or not at all.

been thinking bout you all the time, morning, noon, and suppertime. tear you up in little pieces, swallow you like reeses pieces, come on girl you know i need it.

it ain't supposed to be a thing, i'll wait for you, you wait for me. cuz true love's insisting, we don't have to rush at all.

these are the times we all wish for, the moment when less means so much more. we don't have to do a thing at all, we can take our time and talk. and this is the way things need to be no pressure for you and none for me. just let the mood set the moment off, wecan make love or not at all.

i don't make promises, cuz i know my heart gets weak. when i get around you girl, it makes them hard to keep. cuz you bring out the best, make me the man god knows i'm prod to be.

these are the times we all wish for, the moment when less means so much more. we don't have to do a thing at all, we can take our time and talk. and this is the way things need to be no pressure for you and none for me. just let the mood set the moment off, wecan make love or not at all.

man do i love that song...

ice cream and a movie

so yea i am sitting here on a friday night eating ice cream and watching a movie with one of my best female friends here. it is nice and i miss college life like this.

relaxing without having to worry about anthing life is just carefree. i wish that everything could be like this moment. just bottle it up and keep it forever.

well days like that cannot happen all of the time and that is what makes times like these so special.

well to these days we all love.

what is this?

what is this? i might be getting a job. how awesome is that? too awesome!

if everything goes to plan i will be a nursing assistant. i will get paid well for cleaning up Lord knows what. i don't think that i am that ready for it but i willing to do it and i guess that is all that matters.

yea i love it when i conquer the world. well it is not all conquered yet but i am getting there. just give me til the end of the month and lets see what i say then. i am hoping for something great. i do not know but i am excited.

yay for me. today is a good day. smiles all around.

rynee

hahahaha you know who this is

well anyways if you do not it is your loss. he is a great guy and one of my favorites. yup that is right i like him more than anyone else.

well there maybe one person i like more than him. but only they know. so anyways have not talked to him in a while and i think that i should.

he knows me the best and i know him better even though he does not want to admit it. but that is ok he is my greatest source of entertainment because everytime i see him he talks for 3 hours. it is nice because he is catching me up on everything i missed which is funny because some of the people that he hangs out with have lost their minds.

well it is time for chem. but rynee i love ya.

little brother

i got a little brother last week and it was nice. why would someone want me as their big i do not know but hey i am glad i was picked.

my little is not to be confused with my younger. my younger is my brother from birth and my little is my brother fraternally.

the funniest thing about my little is that he is taller and bigger than me and older too. so then what part of him is little? well that is where it gets to be funny because when i call him my little he is anything but.

well this one is dedicated to him since i wrote one about jon. (that is my big brother) and so i thought i would talk about hte other part of my fraternal family.

homecoming

homecoming...the time when all alums come back and share their time with the college students.

there are bbq's, race walks, tours, you name it they got it. it is a blast. especially when the alums are from your fraternity.

some of them i know and others i don't but it is nice to see thema nd hear about what they are doing after college. it is also a time for us to kick back and just have a great time.

we had a formal and that was excellent. whenever i can get my pics downloaded onto my comp i will post these pics. they are awesome and it was a blast.

well not looking forward to the week but the weekend was a blast.

i feel...

i like what she has to say i look for the same thing in a woman. this is how i feel and i can understand why she feels like that.

clouds

clouds in my coffee, clouds in my coffee.

well not really that thought just came out of no where. but seriously i was in a car with someone and they were talking about how the clouds looked like the ones from the opening of the simpsons. i thought to myself that they were absolutely right. and it made me happy.

then this thought came into mind. what if i looked at my life as those clouds. sometimes they are really beautiful and big a fluffy, others they are flat, dull and grey, and other violent with torrential rains and gale force winds. then you realize that they are all temporary and all pass, weather that is a good thing or not. (the whether is spelled wrong because i am talking about clouds.)

well at least that is what i was thinking.

freedom

yea i know i sound like an ass while writing this and i am sure that the one that this concerns will not be that happy but i don't care.

i love this feeling of freedom, you know the one when you realize that you are better off without the person. yea that is how i feel right now. i know this is completely mean but you know what i have had my fair share of stuff to put up with.

drama and stress have evaporated and they were all over me like the devil on a Christian. hey that is a good one i think i will keep that in my repitior. but seriously i have washed my hands of this person and it is a great feeling.

i have moved on to bigger and better things and now i am smiling. i haven't genuinly done that in a week.

i am happy.

huh?

does anyone know what is going on cuz i sure don't. it is wierd and i do not think i like it. you know that feeling when you are just standing there and something happens and all you can say is huh?

that is exactly how i feel about the whole day. it just did not make any sense.

well changing my desktop and rearranging my room seemed to help make some sense of something today, i have spent more time trying to figure out what i am doing than doing what i should be.

so i think that i am going to call it a night and hopefully when i wake up in the morning i will experience that moment of enlightenment that i have been searching for.

singing today

Locked Up

i'm steady trying to find the motive, why i do what i do. the freedom at gettin no closer, no matter how far i go.

my car is stolen. my registration. cops patrollin, and none of that stopped me.

and i get locked up. they won't let me out, they won't let me out. i'm locked up, they won't let me out, no, they won't let me out.

Hypnotic

hypnotic, you're so hypnotic. you know you got it. you know got a spell ahold on top of me. hypnotic, you're so hypnotic. you know you got it. you got me all up in a transe doin it to me.

i guess that i have been in a mood to sing today

trust

hey this is the second time that write about this in less than a month. i have learned that i should never be so trusting it just ends up hurting.

hey is that not what i said last time. yup that is right ladies and gents i did say that. do i think that i wanna trust people ever again, hmm i do not know but i am sure that the answer is yes.

why will i? i do not know but there is one thing that i have learned is that as hard as it is to trust someone, especially after they have done something wrong, it is much better to forgive them and help them regain your trust than to just let it go by the wayside.

this is really only true if you care about the person because if you do not there really is not a reason to do so. trust is a big thing and when you lose mine it takes a long time to get back.

be aware of this and learn that things like this should not be taken lightly with anyone especially those that you care about.

mozilla firefox

well i decided to get a new server because internet explorer was not working. this is an experiment and right now i think that i like it.

well this has been one of the worlds longest weeks and i am so glad that it is over.

you those that just drain you of all energy and happiness, you just wanna curl up in bed and sleep becuase you are just so sick of dealign with everything. well yea that is the type of week that i just had.

one the bright side my big brother is coming back to school for homecoming in less than a week and i am very excited to see him. i cannot wait.

next week will be agreat week i know because good things happen. so here's looking towards the future. oh yea the solution to everything is peanut butter. huh?

channel surfing

what is the deal with channel surfing.

you still dont' watch anything. if there is nothing on there is NOTHING on. come on people don't you understand this?

how hard is it? not very!

well this is just a serious problem. oh yea duckie says that girls are not expensive. (she just doesn't know)

tired

i am tired of...

studying
listening to people create small talk just to fill the void of silence
cranky people
being craky
eating ramen
people screaming during FIFA
a messy room that is not my fault
nosy people
stress
allergies
migranes
rumors
laziness
people without common sense

i am tired.

labs

what is the point of spending 3.5 hours doing physics? i do not see a reason for this. why is my teacher such a pain? i do not know this either.

this is a waste of my time and life. i have other things that i could be doingthat are far more better than this.

if this lab was an hour and a half that would be pefect.

well until that happens i will be stuck in hell #2.

my brothers

i just read aloud my creed to you. i have realized that i may not be living up to what i just said. my brothers i know all of you had to make a creed, but how many of you live it? i know that there are sometimes that i have not, and realize that i should. is there something we can learn from this?

i think there is. not only is my creed important to me, it is your responsibility as my brother to honor and respect that. but does it just stop there? no.

as a brother in this fraternity we have committed ourselves to upholding what we have found important in a high-minded man and individual.

since when is a high-minded man a critic? when is he arrogant, self-serving, insensitive, and apathetic? better yet what part of the Jordan Standard do any of these traits apply to? how about the Spirit or the Creed? so why do we act this way?

have we lost sight of what being a Sig is about? why? what is the determining factor? a friend told me the other day that Sigma Chi does not provide the answers, it simply supplies the questions. well here is one answer that is does supply, the determining factor is you. i know that this might sound accusatory and i am sorry. i know that i am just as much at fault as you, and it is my pledge to you that i will try and live up to my own creed and the creed of Sigma Chi. would you make that same pledge to me? to your brothers?

we are losing sight of what we are here for. it hurts me to see some guys almost in tears because of the way that people in this Fraternity treat them. i am sorry to come to you today in a manner that is completely unpleasant, but sometimes unpleasantness is what is needed. i challenge you to reflect upon yourselves, assess within your lives that you are living by your creed, if not i challenge you to do so. if you do not have one, i challenge you to make one. if you feel that you live your creed, maybe you should tailor it because it is what we are striving for. it needs to be an unreachable goal that will improve upon your life and lives of others.

find the man in the glass, is this how he is supposed to be, is this how you want him to be, and is he happy? could you be proud of this man? is he proud of you? if you are struggling with any of the questions i have asked you today, recognize this, and try and change. this also applies to me because i have trouble answering some of these myself.

my brothers it is time for us to renew within ourselves the values and ideals that set us apart from all other men and live them. we need to embrace the differences amongst us, for that is why we were founded. change, everything changes and i believe that it is our time as well. i know we still have in us what others saw to invite us into this Fraternity. let us live that and in doing so we shall improve the lives of not only ourselves but everyone whom we interact with.

r-e-s-p-e-c-t

it is funny how i feel that i am not getting any of that around here.

what is hard about respecting someone when they do it to you? i do not find that hard at all, but hey i guess some people feel that it is.

i have realized that it is time for some changes in my life. and i think that will me one of mine.

i will not surround myself with people who do not respect me and what i stand for.

hmm things feel better already.

work

ha ha ha. it is nice hearing from people back home. i love it.

it is funny because last summer was the beginning of my true transition from a teenager to an adult. there were many times that i hated it, but even more that i loved. the best part of growing up are the times when you mess up because that is when you truly grow.

my tacky outbursts and callous comments have taught me to hold my tongue because i have learned that i really do hurt some people. sometimes i need to just be to myself because there are people who actually need to get stuff done. but hey that is me, i love to be involved with people that is how i work. so i learned how to start to temper myself and know what is good and when not to.

the reflections that see of myself in those that have replied to my emails is amazing.

i see where i was and where i am now and they were a part in helping me grow. i thank them for that.

people are sheep be the shepard.

summer changes

it seems like every time i come back from summer vacation everyone looks different and better. i think to myself how come stuff like that never happens to me. i have looked the same since i was like 5 years old.

you know in high school you had those summers when you would come back and find that everyone has changed and you probably have too. well that was not the case for me. and that is still the case now.

why is that i find myself asking why am i so different. can't i come back from just one summer vacation looking better then when i started. just once i would like that.

well here's to wishing.

insert pitty hand

what is that. she does it because she knows i hate it. there is something wrong with that. she knows sign-language and can say things to me that i do not understand. i do not think that i like that.

so now i guess that i will have to learn so i know what she is saying.

him

i hate him. why does he act like this.

it sucks when you take backseat to everything else in the world. sometimes i wish that i wasn't his son. he hurts me so much.

it is interesting how everything form his first marriage has become unimportant to him. he doesn't talk to my mom unless to argue. my brother had a tumor the size of a bracelet jewelery case between his first and second bones in his neck. did you know what he wasn't even going to come for the surgery.

he laughs at me when i tell him my dreams and aspirations. who does that. you can't support your sons that are your own flesh and blood.

oh but what he can support is he current wife, stepmom, and my little sister oh yea she is adopted. i am not saying that i do not love her as a matter of fact i have a pic of her in my room and countless on my computer.

the two that are part of him (me and my lil bro) he treats like bastard children and the aforementioned women like queens.

to be the one person in his current family that he has known the longest it is a shame. i am like shit to him and that is hard to take. i guess the only good thing is that when i am free of him he will never hear from me again.

i guess that is the only thing that i have to look forward to because right now i am in some serious pain.

the funny thing is

trusting someone is the hardest thing to do. it is what everyone craves.

the funny thing is that when you trust someone they almost inevitably end up hurting you, causing you not to want to trust someone else.

then everyone is upset because you don't trust them. but should that necessarily be the case? i don't think so. i think that people should prove to you why you should trust them and then take it to heart.

trust isn't something that is just given out, it needs to be earned and once earned needs to be valued. people can only be hurt so many times before they give up. without trust you can only get as far as people can throw you.

don't let that be your existance because and existance like that is a pathetic one.

my goodies

i bet you want the goodies, bet you thought about it. got you all hot and bothered because i talk about it. you looking for the goodies keep on looking cuz they stay in the jar. oh oh oh oh yea.

Sigma Chi

a sig i am, that is right i am finally writing about my fraternity. i love these guys, they are awesome.

for some people they feel that going greek is about buying friends, or partying, or everything that you have seen in the movie animal house.

well for me it is much much more than that. it is a group of guys that all share the same ideals and all uphold seven standards; a man of good character, a student of fair ability, with ambitious purposes, a congenial disposition, possessed of good morals, having a high sense of honor and a deep sense of personal responsibility. we are always striving to improve upon these standards which we hold dear to our hearts.

we all share these bonds of brotherhood and know and understand that this is just more than an excuse to get together and drink. these are the men in which you can feel comfortable telling your secrets to and knowing that it is ok. they are there in your darkest hour and in your moment of triumph.

this group of men knows that there is a value in the differences in people and they embrace it. they strive for what is best and know that they are here to improve upon what we have been left.

my creed: i will try to always find the positive in everything. be honest and trusting towards all. find the beauty in all things because everything is beautiful. recognize that i am the only one keeping me from greatness. know that there is always someone who is better than me and that it is my responsibility to help those that are not as skilled as me. love unconditionally. not let negative emotions get the best of me. smile. stop, if i find myself arguing over something trivial.shut up if i am angry, for it is better to hold my tongue than to say something that i will regret later.

all of us have one, a creed that is, and that is mine. we hold true to these things that we find dearest to ourselves and since they are so, they are dear to my brothers as well. in other words it is our personal journey to achieve something greater than what we are at this moment in time that causes each other to grow. we hold each other accountable for our actions and expect the same back. thus living up to the jordan standard, the points of which are listed above.

what i know is that men like these are hard to come by. and that we are all here for a purpose, lets embrace that and know that what we are here to do is to uphold the standards of which we all possess and grow from the knowledge of others.

i am proud to be a sig, and i forever am Sigma Chi.

two states the same girl

my old coworker reminds me of my best female friend at shool. she is sassy and all of those other things if you know either one of them you understand. they remind me so much of each other and it is hilarious.

what is really strange is that they are even going through the same type of things at the same time. it is scary. one wrote a note to JM and the other to JB and the first names of the guys are the same. both of which were also goodbye.

it is amazing how you surround yourseslf with the same type of people no matter where you go. these two are over a thousand miles away and it is like i picked up where i left off.

i think that these two should talk one day beacue i think that it would be awesome. just as long as it is not about me that is all that i ask.

well to both of you. you are great people and there is so much waiting for you. go get em' tiger.

randomness

so today i have herad some of the strangest things come out of peoples mouths. like this one girl, who said that there were too many people in china so they have kill everything that runs acroos the street so that they can feed everyone.

another person said eww your food looks like vomit.

i got an email saying "today i farted".

"my teeth are bugging, this is just a spontaneous moment to clean my teeth" then i will eat easy mac. (what is point your teeth will get dirty again)

then i heard this song by Joey McItyre bashing my schools honor code. it was glorious.

my bed...so comfy

my roommate loves his bed. every night he lets me know. but what he doesn't know is secretly my bed is much more comfy.

i have a feather bed on it and he doesn't but that is ok.

i have noticed that i write about some silly things. well hey i am silly kinda guy. my bed is more comfy and that is all i have to say. if you don't believe me you should sleep in it.

scooter

it is funny, i have had celest for two years. for those who don't know celest is my scooter. she has hurt me pretty badly (from falling off not emotionally) but i like her.

well i pulled her out of storage the other day and everyone is riding her. i don't remember the last time she has seen this much action. (for all of you who are thinking like that, shame on you.)

it is great watching people try and ride her down the hall and back again without running into things, especially if they have been drinking. (oh did i say that, no one at my school drinks it is a dry campus.)

red means stop, green means go and pizza is a great breakfast food.

my couch

my roommate and i got a couch. it was free. how great is that?

big brother

so what is the deal with this. i have been bugging him all summer about a job and when he gets one and moves he doesn't even tell me. the way that i find out was by a friend at a party.

granted i love the guy like he is my brother but this makes me mad. c'mon man what is going on?

well whatever is going on i hope that it goes well for him because he is my big brother and i will always wish him well.

but in the meantime do you think you could give me a heads up?

friend

so i just called her to talk on the phone at work. i don't think that was a good idea but i am glad that i did it. she is one in a million. always makes me laugh.

i think that everyone should have a friend like that where you can just lean over the desk and talk even though you both know you have a ton of work to do. it was kinda weird not talking in person because that is what i am used to but that will be easy to get over.

did you know that she loves to laugh so hard she can't breathe. if you didn't now you do. have a great day and we should talk more often.

oh by the way good luck.

not alone

living alone what a novel thought. hearing the sounds down the hall and know that none of that will come from my room. well that has changed as of right now.

today i got a roommate. i have had a lot of trouble with them before because they always leave. now why is that?

i think that i am a pretty good guy why would people not want to room with me? if you know the answer to this do not tell me because i do not want to know.

ignorance is bliss.

hatred

why is it that the things that we are the best at are the things that we hate doing the most. well in my case that is what happens.

like take my instrument for instance. you would think that after 12 years that i would great at playing it. well boy was i wrong. i guess that maybe playing on and off for two years will have that effect on someone.

but going from great to alright is not something that excites me. working harder only frustrates me more because i know i can do it.

i'll get there again and when i do it will be awesome. and i hate my instrument.

that one...

so yea a fellow friend can understand what is going on right now.

can someone get me a fan, water, iceberg? what is this i do not know if i like it at all but i love it at the same time.

ahh well i guess time will have to tell. this is going to be an interesting year to say the least.

yea a two hour converstaion was awesome and the laughter constant. i think that things are going well.

coche

silver body, gray interior, sigma chi sticker you know what i am talking about and that is right it is all mine.

a chrysler concorde what an excellent car i don't know what to with myself. driving whenever i want.

i have now joined the masses with a car, feeling that self of entitlement like, hey look at me look and what i have and you know you envy me.

well you know what i don't think that i would like to take that path. i think that i will say hey look at me i am in a car, if you ned something i might be able to help you.

moving

that is right ladies and gentlemen it is time to move. a whole bunch of sweaty people trying to decorate a box the size of a jail cell to make it feel like home.

music is blaring and boxes are everywhere. back to school fever is everywhere.

not to mention everyone trying to make a good impressions on the new ones that have come this year while rekindling relationships with the seasoned ones.

life is returning back to normal and man do i love it.

gone

i wonder what will happen when i leave. will everything return to the way that it was before i left? hmm maybe it won't, i think that would be best. i think that i would like to leave an imprint on wherever i go (well just as long as it is a good one).

well i hope that things are not the same when i leave and that i have left an impact. well you have all made an impact on me and i thank you for it.

for copy-editing i ask that you be gentle and i know that this will drive some crazy because of the lack of capital letters.

you will all be missed and thank you.

laughing

i find myself laughing at the strangest times. i often think to myself what am i laughing about and is it truly as funny as i make it. the answer is yes. everything is just that funny.

if you disagree with that statement then you just don't know. but you better ask me. like right now i am laughing at you. i do not know why just cuz i can. try it on someone it is the greatest feeling in the world.

eat chicken not mud and you will be fine.

leaving

sitting back and reflecting i have learned many things this summer. one of the biggest was when all else fails shut up. that was a hard one for me.

i also learned that the little things are the greatest. that the person behind you is a great and awesome person and is always willing to help. the laughter of the person next to you can always brighten your day and the great things they say when they are frustrated. sneezing is an excellent feeling and everytime you say bless you the more times sneezing occurs. that the best times are the ones spent hanging over a shelf of a desk. music is the soul of everyone and lunges are best done between cubicles. the best cakes are those that are six layers and made of chocolate.

if you have not tried cold stone, it is great. do not talk during movies people do not like it. laughter is even better. toe licking is best done in the netherlands.

people are good and willing to help. the sarcasm that comes from the windows in the office is great and i love it, and the looks from the editor are classic (and the same). the smiles that everyone has on their way to work because they genuine love their jobs, which in my opinion makes all the difference. the boss that is easily to relate to even though he is 20 years older. supervisors are great, especially when they are like the one i have right now.

the old man photographer that is younger than me always brightens my day even though he does not know the difference between thrusday and friday. that no matter old you are age is what you want it to be. everyone who has the same name as me is awesome hands down. exclaimation points are great!!!!!!! and life is short. magnets are nice and starbucks is the greatest place to go on mondays.

a good worker can balance fun and work and always has enough time for both. everything works out just do not stress too much cuz you are the one who messes things up. time flys, pigs don't and the world is round.

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ping and dink, insert them where you want to. i like to do it at random times during the day. luz does it when i blink and nukku when i smile. try it they have always worked for me.