most people go to a bar for their 21st birthday. but not this kid, for my 21st birthday i went to alaska. ewll it was the most beautiful place i have seen in a long time i must say.
well the feet one is just for Liz but i thought that i would share just a little with ya.
goodnight lamps, goodnight table,
goodnight bowl full of mush
and the little old lady whispering hush.
as my final summer as a college student comes to a close i look forward to the last year of college.
but enough of the mushy stuff
i awoke this morning from the worst dream, i was infected with flesh-eating bacteria and i was dying. it was horrible and i looked horrible too.
but hey i awoke and knew it was a dream, good things about dreams, they are not real.
somehow i know that, there's a place up above
with no more hurt and struggling
free of all atrocities and suffering
because i feel the unconditional love, from one who cares enough for me
to erase all my burdens
and let me be free to
fly like a bird.
take to the sky.
i need you now Lord, carry me high
don't let the world break me tonight.
i need the strength of you by my side.
sometimes this life can be so cold.
i pray you'll come and carry me home.
can we recover, will the world ever be
a place of peace and harmony?
with no war and with no brutality.
if we loved each other, we would find victory
but in this harsh reality
sometimes i'm so despondant that i feel the need to
fly like a bird.
take to the sky.
i need you now Lord, carry me high
don't let the world break me tonight.
i need the strength of you by my side.
sometimes this life can be so cold.
i pray you'll come and carry me home.
Keep your head to the sky
With God's love you'll survive
fly like a bird.
take to the sky.
i need you now Lord, carry me high
don't let the world break me tonight.
i need the strength of you by my side.
sometimes this life can be so cold.
i pray you'll come and carry me home.
carry me higher, higher, higher
carry me higher, higher, higher
carry me home
higher Jesus
carry me higher Lord
it's like that y'all, that y'all...
well needless to say this is a great day.
i continue to make changes to myself, and i am loving it. one little one has gotten more attention than some of the ones that i have made on a grander scale.
it is interesting how somethings go unnoticed to some and are blaringly clear to others. well if you notice this change you will love it.
ok so i know i said i was done but i found some more and could not resist...
Aeronausiphobia- Fear of vomiting secondary to airsickness
Ambulophobia- Fear of walking
Anthrophobia or Anthophobia- Fear of flowers
Amathophobia- Fear of dust
Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations
Asymmetriphobia- Fear of asymmetrical thingstations
Bathmophobia- Fear of stairs
Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colors
Cymophobia or Kymophobia- Fear of waves or wave like motions
Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school
Dipsophobia- Fear of drinking
Ereuthrophobia- Fear of blushing
Ergophobia- Fear of work
Heliophobia- Fear of the sun
Hyelophobia or Hyalophobia- Fear of glass
Hygrophobia- Fear of liquids, dampness, or moisture
Hypengyophobia or Hypegiaphobia- Fear of responsibility
Hylephobia- Fear of materialism or the fear of epilepsy
wow, i can not believe this. this year has gone from bad to worse to horrible to amazing.
things for me just keep getting better. i am more comfortable with myself and the man that i am becomming. and how i am growing as an adult.
the most important thing is that there are very few things that bother me now, i am happy, blessed and drama-free. i want everyone to feel like me.
goofing off one day i start imitating someone one the radio. someone turns to me and asks me if i sing for real. honestly i answer and tell them i have been singing for a long time.
i find myself randomly singing at work sometimes. and i get scorned, not because it sounds bad but because it is distracting to those that are one the phone, which is understandable.
i wonder what would happen if i did this professionally, or i just stopped.
countless people tell me i a great, but i think they are just blowing smoke. i can never tell what is real and what is not.
could i handle the truth, what would i do with it. hmmm i really do not know but one thing is for sure if i do not ask i will never know. so tell me what do you think?
how do i sound?
can you hear me?
(i am joking)
even though it is a year away, i am horribly excited to go to culinary school. i have not gotten in or figured out how i am going to pay for this but i am excited none-the-less.
i think it stems more from something that one of my very good friends said, you are serious about this, it is something you love nad are already good at. man i cannot wait until that day when i can walk onto that campus and start cooking.
just writing about it right now makes me even more excited. what can i say i am happy for once go figure. getting out of school, going home and reorganizing my life has brought me back to the person i used to be a long time ago.
i am so excited i do not know what to do with myself. right now i have 365 days until culinary school i know that sounds like a lot but think about it this way, God willing i have 22,000 days left so 365 is not bad at all.
food glorious food.
