just a little gross

i have resumed my regular workouts at bally's. it is good to start to get back into shape again. maybe by november i will have gained 25 pounds, well at least that is my goal.

so while i am at the gym i get to lifting, which is the only way said pounds will get added, and i hear this guy lifting two benches over. now most people grunt, scream, or make some sort of gutteral noise. well not this guy.

it sounds like he is engaging in a porn movie. needless to say just a little gross, but hey i am not going to be the one to tell him, he is twice my size and all muscle.

i have to potty

that oh familiar word uttered from the mouths of little children. little children, little people, with their round faces, small hands and adorable features.

but do not let that fool you. they are smarter than they look.

just the other day i watched one make a laser out of a light bulb a mirror and a box of toothpicks. ok so i am talking about mcguyver, but it was worth the shot.

seriously though they are a bundle of joy with legs and arms and a head, with a mouth and eyes and hair and ears, and the most annoying phrase ever, i have to potty.

no man is an island...right?

as my life has gotten progressively better, one thing has come into sharp relief, i have never connected to a single person. i have gotten close to people before but i want more than that.

i watch all of my friends and their lives, never envious but always happy for them. i think if you were to ask me that 2 months ago i would have said something else.

sitting at home watching tv, or a movie i want someone there. i love to be alone but at the same time i want someone there you know what i mean. not as an accessory or anything like that, but to be a companion.

someone to just lay witha nd talk at all hours of the night, someone who will call me or i can call just because, someone strong, compassionate, intelligent and creative. gentle and patient.

i feel like a tropical island, people stay there for a short time but then they leave and might not return until the next year. i want to feel connected to someone.

kinda a depression way to end, so a little ditty i came up with...

ok so i forgot it and i think it was stupid, but i would want them to laugh it and think it was cute none the less.

adding another ring

means that i am a little smarter, wiser and closer to death...well naturally that is.

think back, has this year really been different than all of the others. besides the obvious fact that i am getting old, on the surface you would probably say no.

i still make silly mistakes, still say inappropriate things, i am lacking in so many areas. but then there is not a person who is not lacking somehwere. and the realization of this has changed me. i have grown because i now identify what is defective about me and try and fix it. i will always be defective but hey i like it like that.

"she's working that back i don't know how to act. slow motion for me, slow motion for me, slow motion for me move in slow motion for me."

ok random thought but it was triggered by the last sentence.

granted they are defects but they are MINE and i love them. it makes me special.

that i think is why this ring is different from all of the rest. it was that marking of a very healty/prosperous year.

but i am not

crazy that is.

for a while i thought that i was. there is this guy at work who i swore was two different people. now i am fortunate to have a photographic memory and so i am very very good at remembering what people are wearing and what they look like.

i thought that these two were brothers or something. plus every other time i would see him he would not have his glasses on. one day on the other off, one day on the next off.

it was starting to confuse me because i did not know if he wore glasses or not. it was the strangest thing.

well i just ran into him with the glasses on and then i knew, i was not going crazy it really was him. so now i feel better.

"i didn't know that hooters had take-out. what's the point?"

webbie crazy

i might get a new i site. i do not know how this one will work so for right now i am doing two. the other one is with xanga.

check the links if you wanna read. the first blog is a repeat.

happy monday?

that phrase has been flying around the office all day. i guess so far it has been. if all goes really well i will get the apartment that i have been wanting for a while, boasting the biggests closets in northern indiana.

ok shut it erica i know you are laughing.

i am looking forward to all of the good things that will be happeneing today and this week.

university

time spent sitting down in a uncomfortable chair, while people from the company tell me about their jobs. some funny, witty, entertaining, others dull and boring.

next to me are beatuiful women from all over the northwest. it was fun, well some of the time.

yesterday we went out afterwards to the mall. well me and the three gils that i sat next to. i found many things that were on sale like a pair of jeans for 9.97 and they are good jeans.

but watching people in the mall was a sight.

one of the girls is very tiny and she can shop in little kids stores. so walking into abercrombie a kid no more than sixteen asked me if he could help me. trying not to laugh in his face i politely said no thank you and waited outside for her to get finished. he smiled warmly and went to the back.

when i walk into a store and the people that work there are over five years younger than me, i need to worry if i really need to be there.

granted this will change the older i get but for the time being i think that i am safe with that.

touched

i have not heard a song in a long time that has touched me in such a way like this one. granted it is out of season since it is a christmas song, but it still does not lose any part of its message.

it was almost christmas time, there i stood in another line
tryin' to buy that last gift or two, not really in the christmas mood
standing right in front of me was a little boy waiting anxiously
pacing 'round like little boys do
and in his hands he held a pair of shoes

his clothes were worn and old, he was dirty from head to toe
and when it came his time to pay
i couldn't believe what i heard him say

chorus:
sir, i want to buy these shoes for my mama, please
it's christmas eve and these shoes are just her size
could you hurry, sir, daddy says there's not much time
you see she's been sick for quite a while
and i know these shoes would make her smile
and i want her to look beautiful if mama meets Jesus tonight

they counted pennies for what seemed like years
then the cashier said, "son, there's not enough here"
he searched his pockets frantically
then he turned and he looked at me
he said Mama made christmas good at our house
though most years she just did without
tell me sir, what am i going to do,
somehow i've got to buy her these christmas shoes

so i laid the money down, i just had to help him out
i'll never forget the look on his face when he said
mama's gonna look so great

sir, i want to buy these shoes for my mama, please
it's christmas eve and these shoes are just her size
could you hurry, sir, daddy says there's not much time
you see she's been sick for quite a while
and i know these shoes would make her smile
and i want her to look beautiful if mama meets Jesus tonight

bridge:
i knew i'd caught a glimpse of heaven's love
as he thanked me and ran out
i knew that God had sent that little boy
to remind me just what christmas is all about

repeat chorus

eggs, eggs, eggs

an interesting tidbit of information; chef's hats have 100 pleats in them, this is to indicate that the chef can cook eggs 101 ways.

so i decided to find out what those were. i know that there are not 101 w ays but i am getting there...

shirred eggs
eggs mexicana
eggs on a plate
eggs de lesseps
eggs meyerbeer
eggs a la reine
egga au miroir
eggs a la paysanne
eggs a la trinidad
eggs rossini
eggs baked in tomato sauce
eggs a la martin
eggs a la valencienne
fillets of eggs
eggs a la suisse
eggs with nut-brown butter
egg timbales
eggs coquelicot
eggs suzette
eggs en cocotte
eggs steamed in the shell
birds' nests
eggs in panade
egg pudding
eggs a la bonne femme
eggs mirabeau
eggs norweigian
eggs prescourt
eggs courtland
eggs louisiana
eggs richmond
hungarian eggs
eggs nova scotia
eggs lakme
eggs malikoff
eggs virginia
japanese eggs
eggs a la windsor
eggs buckingham
poached eggs on fried tomatoes
eggs a la finnois
eggs a la gretna
egga a l'inperatrice
eggs with chestnuts
eggs a la regence
eggs a la livingstone
eggs mornay
eggs zanzibar
eggs monte bello
eggs a la burbon
eggs bernaise
eggs a la rorer
eggs benedict
hard boiled
fried eggs
scrambled eggs
eggs creole
curried eggs
eggs beauregard
eggs lafayette
eggs jefferson
eggs washington
eggs au gratin
deviled eggs
eggs a la tripe
egga a l'aurore
eggs a la dauphin
egg balls
eggs a la bennett
eggs broulli
scalloped eggs
egg farci
develed egg salad
japanese hard eggs
eggs en marinade
eggs a la polonaise
eggs a la hyde
egga a la vinaigrette
eggs a la russe
eggs lyonnaise
egg croquettes
egg chops
scrambled eggs with chipped beef
eggs scrambled with lettuce (YUCK)
scrambled eggs with shrimp (bubba would love this)
eggs scrambled with fresh tomatoes
scrambled eggs with aspargus tips
omelets
fritata
sweet omelets
egg flip

back in the day

i was asked to come and meet his new girlfriend because she wanted to meet all of the guys that he used to run with and he wanted to have a party. i said ok.

so i leave my house and drive over to a friend of his' house where the party was held. court, drew, john and i were there along with oliver, the guy who wanted us to meet teah. she is a great young lady i am happy for him.

seeing almost all of the 4x400 meter relay that was very close to winning three state championships together again brought a swell of fond and not-so-fond memories back. we reminisced about our old coach and how crazy he was, old track meets, and our lives in general back then.

it was funny, we had a fallout but you would have never known. we just picked up where we left off when we were closer, it was nice even for a day.

we caught each other up on everything that we were doing right now, and how life was going. i found it wonderful to hear that they were all doing well and what they will be doing in a few years.

we all had fun at the party, and everything that happened back in the day all became fond memories, even the ones that were not-so-fond earlier that day. we all had a great laugh.

hollaback girl

the most annoying song in america right now. for me it ranks up there with the macarena.

few times you been round that track, so it's not gonna happen like that cuz i ain't no hollaback girl, i an't no holla back girl.
repeat

oooooo ooo that's my @#$! that's my @#$!
repeat x4

and i cannot get it out of my head because it is overplayed

so i am a bad person

post one of three

i made a horoscope blog the last time i wrote with random things that i thought about, bieng my normal stupid self. none of these were to be taken seriously.

the aquarius one could actually apply to someone and since i am a cancer-leo cusp i had to beef those two up.

but then it happened to someone i know and i feel bad. should i?

here read for yourself.

ah so true

cancer oh...

capricon, aquarius, pisces, aries, taurus, gemini, cancer oh
leo, virgo, libra, scorpio, sagittarius i love all yall.

today's horoscope.

pisces- because jupiter is in your fourth house you will be ruled by your intestines, expect major constipation and bowel problems this week.

aries- the moon, which rules the water lies in your third house. be aware of all people that mean you harm, for they will try and drown you.

taurus- neptune is rising in your second house, this will cause irregular and severe hiccups and bad acne for you this month.

gemini- money will be a problem for you this month, be aware of your investments because many of them will fail this month.

cancer- saturn is rising in your sixth house bringing you good favor and luck, be adventurous this month.

leo- pouto is in your fifth house causing you much stress. relax and make time for you.

virgo- people will be looking for you to help them in their time of need. be generous with yourself because they will repay you ten fold.

libra- uranus is rising in your eighth house, muscular problems await you this month so eat a lot of bananas.

scorpio- venus is in your fourth house. love is all around you but not directed towards you, love someone and you might find it returned. also be aware of what you eat because you will have severe flatulants this month.

sagittarius- you are going to die

capricorn- the sun is in your thrid house, stay away from anything hot because it will burn you.

aquarius- you are fortunate in love, but jealousy awaits you. be aware of past affairs for they are all plotting against you right now.

stay tuned for more horoscopes.