karma

weren't you the one who said that you didn't want me anymore. and how you need the space and give the key back to your door. and how i cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me. still you said that love was gone and that i had to leave. now you, are talking about a family. now you, sayin i complete your dreams. now you, sayin i'm your everything. you're confusing me, what you say to me, don't play with me. don't play with me.

what comes around, goes around. what goes up must come down. now who's cryin, desiring to come back to me. what goes around, comes around. what goes up must come down. now who's crying, desiring to come back.

i remember sittin home all alone. waitin for you, till three o'clock in the morn.

and when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse. and explainin to me, like I'm just some kinda fool. i sacrifice the things i want to and do things for you. but when it's time to do for me, you never come through. now you, wanna be a bond of me. now you, have so much to say to me. now you, wanna make time for me
what you do to me. you're confusin me. don't play with me. don't play with me.

cause what goes around, comes around. what goes up, must come down. wow who's cryin, desirin to come back to me. what goes around, comes around. what goes up, must come down. now who's cryin, desirin to come back.

i remember sittin home all alone. waitin for you, till three o'clock in the morn.

night after night, knowin sumthing goin on. wasn't home before me you was, you was gone. lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me. never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me. and never do what u was supposed to do. no need to hose me fool, cause i'm over you.

cause what goes around, comes around. what goes up, must come down. wow who's cryin, desirin to come back to me. what goes around, comes around. what goes up, must come down. now who's cryin, desirin to come back.

am i really done?

wow, i think for the first time in a long time i am relieved with a decision that i made concerning leaving something. it is the first time that i have not finished something all the way through, but you know what, it is ok.

i have decided to leave track and field while i am still attending valpo. i have had my share of good times and bad times, more often bad then good, but hey life is not always ideal. it was more a decision based on my role as a student-athlete. i am a student first and then an athlete and as much as my coach said that he really did not believe that.

planning my schooling around track and field is a hard thing for me because all of my courses are lab courses and are anywhere between 3-5 hours in some cases. naturally i will have times when i cannot make it to practice and that was always a cause for stress.

as i have gotten older the demands of my major have become greater and greater and this means that i have to devote more time to it than any other thing because that is the reason i am here.

track has always been something that i have loved and i am sure that i will keep on running well after i graduate, but for right now it is my job to concentrate on graduating, doing well in the MCAT, getting into medical school, and finding a job. only after i have my life in order i can play. that is something that my coach does not realize needs to happen for me to be happy.

he can always find another runner, but i cannot waste my time, and in a sense that is what i think that i am doing. it was fun (or not) while it lasted but i think that it is time for me to bow out and focus on things that are a little more important, like my future.

There he is...

 

so this is the first time that i think i have put my roommate on this website, well a picture that is. oh yea he is the one in the spartan cheerleader outfit.

yes this is halloween up in Milwalkee so do not get any ideas. hahahaha. ahh the memories that we have created, watching him rearrange other borhter's rooms, playin halo, watching tv at odd hours of the night, ramen, driving to random places, runs to fast food joints in the middle of the night cuz we are hungry, dunes, beirut champs... you get the idea.

this is the fuirst year i had a good roommate, the last two very interesting but oh well what can you do?

wow it is really hot in here they need to turn back on the air.

and we don't do this...

so i am just chillin at a party the night before formal and all of a sudden this girl just comes out of no where. she walks down the stairs and them grabs a trash can and you guessed it, proceeds to vomit all up in there.

so my friend sara walks down the stairs and over to the girl and this is what she says...

did you just come in here and vomit? well it stinks and we just don't do that here...

cue dellay - "so you will have to leave"

cue scott - "so what did this girl do, just walk in here, vomit, and leave? who does that?"

what is up with drunk people?

when you cross the line

there is a time and a place for everything. and there are things that you should and should not say. if you feel the need to say things that you should not know this be aware of the consequences.

it is rude and inconsiderate of you to do something like that, even if you think that it is a joke. to take advantage of someone's feelings to make someone else laugh is a disgusting thing to do which makes me sick.

how can you call yourself a brother? you say that you uphold a certain set of values and morals, but it is ok whenever you feel like laughing to make others uncomfortable. is that right? do you talk to the person before? do you consider where they are comeing from and why they might be hurt? do you understand them and their life?

if you do not think about things like that not only do you endanger your relationship with someone, you you make yourself look like an ass. this goes doubly for those who understand why the other person feels that way.

know that it is not your place to say things like that and do not say them. irreperable damage is done with words like that. if nothing else do it because there is a certain level of respect that should be given to each brother and do not put them through that. it is an intentional attempt to hurt someone, and does nothing but cause problems with people later.

everyone has a sore spot that gets pushed more often than it should. realize this and know that there are some things that should never be brought up, and others that might be good only if you do it at the right time. tonight was not one of them and it was extremely hurtful. no one likes to feel that they are under attack, and others have to defend themselves from the outside world too. more so than others in some peoples cases. understand that, and realize that they do not need that from someone who is supposed to be bound together in frendship and love. you know the rest, i do not need to write it.