you thought...

you thought that you could take advantage of his feelings
you thought that you did not have to love him
you thought you did not have to include him...

he became doormat to everyone he meets
he never learned how to love himself
he always felt alone.

you thought that you could control him
you thought that he was weak
you thought that everything was ok...

he lost all control
he showed everyone how strong he was,
he brought a weapon to school and murdered 12 people and then killed himself.

now everything is not ok, lives are ruined and families are broken.
the only thing that he wanted was a friend in you.

a little attention goes a long way and a friend found this out the hard way.
it is not that hard, reach to someone, you never know whose life you might save.

(i was not involved in any way just so you do not think i did this)

candid conversation

sean- hey did you know that they (chair massages) are now moved to the second floor. betcha did not know that.
hahahaha

liz- i did, actually.

s- man i thought that i knew something you didn't. oh well i will try again later.

l- i know EVERYthing. no… that's a lie.

s- i was about to say FALSE! but, you beat me to it.

l- Bwah-ha!

s- did you really make that sound, cuz that would have been AWESOME

l- i did in my head… but i do out loud quite often.

s- well that is good, but i think that would have been funny if you did and it is completely silent down there too. do you have to meet up with his mom anymore today?

l- no more with his mom… though she's gonna call and we're gonna plan a lunch with my parents.

s- well that it really nice.

l- yeah, i guess.

s- why do you say it like that? this way they will get to know you as madame G, mistress G, sister G, hood rat G, frugal G, bald G (that is cuz I am gonna shave your head hahahaha), pregnant G (you better not be), whatever G, you want maybe even Liz G.

l- hood rat? sister? mistress? NO! BALD?! NO!
PREGNANT??? HELL NO!
:) liz is fine.

s- i am kind of partial to hood rat, sister implies nun, mistress i could see you as one, bald of COURSE BALD.
glad to hear it, well just at least for right now, you WILL get knocked up later though.
yea liz is good, but it is fun to attach surnames before it.

l- why are you partial to hood rat? sister? nonono. mistress… well, you gotta point.
bald. nonono. and knocked up? NONONO.

s- no i just like calling people hood rats, i am not saying you are.
sister, well every girl has a good side to her, even you.
yea you know you would be a good mistress.
bald, yea yea yea
knocked up, OH YEA! for someone who hates children i have a feeling you will have a couple.

l- CRAP. you're gonna jinx me.

s- that is the point. i WANT you to have kids. you would love it.

l- ewww. grody.

s- they are not grody, you know that. only cleaning up poop is grody.

l- they ARE grody.

s- well then I hope you have 6 children. that are all just like you.

l- how many are you gonna have?

s- 2 maybe 3, it is funny i have chosen a name for one, and my friend named her child my name and we have never talked about it.

l- that happened to my parents. my brother was supposed to be jonathan michael but my uncle stole it… so my brother is jason andrew. and that same uncle… his daughter, my cousin april… stole the song I wanted to play at my wedding when I walk down the aisle.

s- what was the song?

l- "goin' to the chapel and we're gonna get married…"

s- you WOULD walk down the aisle with that song playing.
the name was micah anthony.

l- i knew a girl named micah.

s- yea the girl who took that name, that is her sister's name.
hey go to the newest link on my website you will LOVE it.

l- i will in a minute… tryin' to get something done.


do you see all of the exclamation points? fred would kill me and liz.

dripping all over

cool, refreshing water cascading off of the side of a rocky cliff, with trees surrounding it. creating a beautiful landscape that can only be fathomed by the imagination. i am just letting the water pour all over my head, while i take in the smells, and sounds. it is beautiful. fish swimming at my feet tickling them, bird all around singing, and animals drinking from the crystal clear water.

then i woke from my day dream in the shower because the water was getting cold. many days start out like that, the shower is my escape, until the cold water brings me back.

it is funny like that how something so mundane can be a daily vacation, keeping everything in you calm and relaxed. i am in dire need of a vacation, i guess i will take a shower after work.

postsecret

so i decided to go to this postsecret blog on blogger. well needless to say it was pretty cool.

pooping

is one of my favorites.

jessica simpson

is also a great one.

but more than that this site is awesome for it is just that anonymous secrets.

some like the ones that i have are quriky and funny, but others are very serious, but raw emotion like that is incredible.

i am addicted to it, well at least unitl i finish reading all fo them. see them yourself.

the link is on the sidebar.

boredome

capricorn, aquraius, pises, aries, tuarus, gemini, cancer OH
leo, virgo, libra, scorpio, sagitarius, i love all yall.

and that is how bored i am right now. nothing to do. i want to fall asleep, but i know if i do i will get into trouble.

what am i doing. someone please save me, SOON. i am even using capital letter today. that is how bad it is.

since i can harldy see the screen, so i am typing with my eyes closed. it is a lot harder than i initially thought.

stupid questions

ok so everyone has heard there are no such things as stupid question. well ibeg to differ there are stupid questions, but why the person asked the question is not stupid.

like one of my favorites that i have asked was this:

on the crystal geyser label it says "bottled at the source, crystal geyser, natural spring water, BY CG ROXANE"

who is cg roxane, and did they make the water, because if they did then it is not natural, and if they did not what why is their name on the label?

ok not gonna lie a stupid question but i love to ask it anyways.

yesterday it rained

yesterday it rained, and the day before, and the day before that one too. it is supposed to rain today also.

man this is a lot of rain.

i cannot even go out and play in it, and i cannot curl up on my couch cushion and watch a movie or read a book.

what is it about rain that is just so great. i love it, watching it, listening to it, the way everything is after it, the smell of the air before it.

such a great thing rain is. well until it causes a flood and then the fire claims get really busy and no one wants that. (ok inside joke). laugh you know you want to.

back to the rain.

why?

ok so funny story. (well at least i thought that it was)

a woman at a club was dancing with a young man, and another woman came up to them and started to dance with him. this preceeded to make the first and shorter girl angry.

these two started to fight over this man, getting louder and louder. a circle clears for them becuase everyone thought that they were going to fight. before the fight could get started the shroter one took off her heels and hit the taller one in the eye with the back of her shoe.

moral of the story: do not get into a fight at a club with a short woman in heels over a man.

what is your thing

so we have decided that everyone has a thing. what is yours? i guess i should be a little more clear when i say that we decided. we is my biology class.

one day we were talking about one girls culy hair which is her thing and that is what i said. well that started a brand new conversation about things.

i guess that mine is my smile and goofy personality (insert sound-effects here). wink

but some people were sad when they could not think about their thing and no one could tell them that they had one. i guess that is a good thing when there is something that you have that noone else does or that makes you stand out.

so what is your thing?

i miss...again

i miss so much right now.

the free time that you had when you got out of school for the summer.
being able to wake up whenever you want.
being lazy.
being active.
doing what i want when i want.
watching movies all day.
running fast.
eating a whole lot of food (i do not eat as much anymore)
going out with close friends (but that will change soon)
taking long showers.
driving my car.
my bobo
doing something stupid and laughing about it.
eating summer fruit (they have not all become available yet)
potato salad
parties
cooking
peach cobbler (well just mine)

well i think that is all for the time being.

like a good neighbor

you know the rest. and if you do not then i am sorry for you.

yup ladies and gentlemen that is where i am working this summer. i think that it will be a fun experience since i really do not know seeing as i have only been here two days so far.

one things is nice is that i can see some of the people that i worked with last year and see how they are doing.

auto underwiting is where i am right now, and it is not as bad as i thought it would be. but now it is back to work seeing as that is what i am getting paid for. hahahaha

being the DD

 

being a designated driver is a great thing but sometimes i hate doing it. like when this picture was taken. i was toting people all around all night, and the only source of entertainment was what happened when i had to drop someone off.

they (the drunk ones) got a hold of my camera and started taking random pictures of each other. and what you see is a result of that.

it is hilarious because she is completely smashed and is really not like that, and that i know if i was there that would never had happened. so i it interesting to see people when the do stuff like this and do not know that others will remember and see what they are doing the next day.

needless to say she got a kick out of seeing it. and so will everyone who knows her and this site.

you could cut it with a knife

that is right i am talking about stress. it is that thick around here right now. end of the year stuff is going on so you know we are all studying like crazy and trying to get out of here and all the madness.

time for all nighters, adarol for some, migranes for me, stress for all, great parties, saying godd-bye to those graduating, finding places to live next year, and all of that good stuff.

well needless to say i am quite ready to blow this popsicle stand. but that is right i come back for one more year, and then that is right the REAL world. i do not think that i am ready for that yet but we will find out in about 12 months now will we.

ha that is not that long of a time for me. it is interesting, this is a big year for me. turning 21, starting my senior year in the fall, graduating in the spring, living on my own...wow where does the time go.

i remember when i was little and would listen to "the mistletoe jam" by luther vandross at christmas and just have myself a grand old time just being little. man i wish i could still do that. oh well enough about that. time to get back to the books.

the incurable stomachache

so i have had the worst stomachache of my life for the past three months.

ok it is not like i have had it all three months but at least 4 days a week for the past three months i have had really really severe ones. some times i just think it is because of natural reasons, but now i am starting to question that.

i really am not a big fan of these and it is like having a migrane minus the head pain. so with that said i am gonna try and sleep it off or something.

hmmm

so this has been a very interesting weekend. i went to marquette for a big party, it was a blast. drove back for a brotherhood event with some great competition, lost on sat. and sun got a whole bunch of stuff done.

then i went to church, which was excellent, i thouroughly enjoyed it. understood a physics problem that i had no clue what to do before church, so i will blame him for that one.

and didn't get to bed til four getting more work done. got up and missed a class.

went to a party before my second class, it was really fun and i saw people that i would have never expected to see there. went to class and have my own personal summer while almost everyone is buzzed and the teacher is crackin jokes left and right which actually really funny.

got out of there met with a friend to finish a test re-work. watched a movie with three really hot ladies in it while and folded my laundry. and then finished a paper. wow i am AWESOME. i wish i had fun like this all of the time because i am still being a great student and gettin work done too.

i'm LOVIN life right now!!!! (fred those were for you)

yea a new song

so i have found a new song in spanish to fall in love with. the last one was, hoy es adios, and you could find me singing it everywhere and it was great i loved what it had to say and still do for that most part. but now i have found that is just as good and i have not heard before, well that is a lie, i have not heard in a long time.

it is by carlos ponce and i think i am gonna take some time and check this artist out, he might be worth getting a cd. but for the time being i will just listen to the song. oh if you were wondering what the song is it is called, llevame contigo.

oh and here are the words for all of you spanish buffs (or just for people who know how to speak the language).

tiene tu sonrisa un quien sabe
un no sé que, un qué sé yo
que me está volviendo loco
tiene tu mirada un puede ser
un tal vez o a lo mejor
que no logro descifrar
soy un habitante de la calle
no le debo nada a nadie
y lo poco que me queda es para ti

llévame contigo
a un lugar prohibido
llévame contigo al rincón de tu querer
ponme de castigo
hazme lo indebido
que no voy a resistir mira que no puedo estar sin ti

tienes un encanto, un hechizo
un maldito maleficio
que me tiene hipnotizado
llevas mi tortura en la cintura
y este mal no tiene cura
no quiero morir tentado
soy un habitante de la calle
no le debo nada a nadie
y lo poco que me queda es para ti

llévame contigo
a un lugar prohibido
llévame contigo al rincón de tu querer
ponme de castigo
hazme lo indebido
que no voy a resistir mira que no puedo estar sin ti (repite)
estar sin ti

voy cayendo lentamente en tu cautivador
alucinógeno
voy probando sin remedio un híbrido sabor
de caramelo amargo y dulces sueños
de dulces sueños

llévame contigo
a un lugar prohibido
llévame contigo al rincón de tu querer
ponme de castigo
hazme lo indebido
que no voy a resistir no lo voy a resistir

llevame llevame
a un lugar un lugar
donde puedo hacerte bien o mal
ponme de castigo
hazme lo lo que quiera
cuando quieras.
mira que no puedo estar sin ti

llévame contigo
a un lugar prohibido
llévame contigo al rincón de tu querer
Oh
ponme de castigo
hazme lo indebido
que no puedo estar sin ti