what is the deal with channel surfing.
you still dont' watch anything. if there is nothing on there is NOTHING on. come on people don't you understand this?
how hard is it? not very!
well this is just a serious problem. oh yea duckie says that girls are not expensive. (she just doesn't know)
i am tired of...
studying
listening to people create small talk just to fill the void of silence
cranky people
being craky
eating ramen
people screaming during FIFA
a messy room that is not my fault
nosy people
stress
allergies
migranes
rumors
laziness
people without common sense
i am tired.
what is the point of spending 3.5 hours doing physics? i do not see a reason for this. why is my teacher such a pain? i do not know this either.
this is a waste of my time and life. i have other things that i could be doingthat are far more better than this.
if this lab was an hour and a half that would be pefect.
well until that happens i will be stuck in hell #2.
i just read aloud my creed to you. i have realized that i may not be living up to what i just said. my brothers i know all of you had to make a creed, but how many of you live it? i know that there are sometimes that i have not, and realize that i should. is there something we can learn from this?
i think there is. not only is my creed important to me, it is your responsibility as my brother to honor and respect that. but does it just stop there? no.
as a brother in this fraternity we have committed ourselves to upholding what we have found important in a high-minded man and individual.
since when is a high-minded man a critic? when is he arrogant, self-serving, insensitive, and apathetic? better yet what part of the Jordan Standard do any of these traits apply to? how about the Spirit or the Creed? so why do we act this way?
have we lost sight of what being a Sig is about? why? what is the determining factor? a friend told me the other day that Sigma Chi does not provide the answers, it simply supplies the questions. well here is one answer that is does supply, the determining factor is you. i know that this might sound accusatory and i am sorry. i know that i am just as much at fault as you, and it is my pledge to you that i will try and live up to my own creed and the creed of Sigma Chi. would you make that same pledge to me? to your brothers?
we are losing sight of what we are here for. it hurts me to see some guys almost in tears because of the way that people in this Fraternity treat them. i am sorry to come to you today in a manner that is completely unpleasant, but sometimes unpleasantness is what is needed. i challenge you to reflect upon yourselves, assess within your lives that you are living by your creed, if not i challenge you to do so. if you do not have one, i challenge you to make one. if you feel that you live your creed, maybe you should tailor it because it is what we are striving for. it needs to be an unreachable goal that will improve upon your life and lives of others.
find the man in the glass, is this how he is supposed to be, is this how you want him to be, and is he happy? could you be proud of this man? is he proud of you? if you are struggling with any of the questions i have asked you today, recognize this, and try and change. this also applies to me because i have trouble answering some of these myself.
my brothers it is time for us to renew within ourselves the values and ideals that set us apart from all other men and live them. we need to embrace the differences amongst us, for that is why we were founded. change, everything changes and i believe that it is our time as well. i know we still have in us what others saw to invite us into this Fraternity. let us live that and in doing so we shall improve the lives of not only ourselves but everyone whom we interact with.
it is funny how i feel that i am not getting any of that around here.
what is hard about respecting someone when they do it to you? i do not find that hard at all, but hey i guess some people feel that it is.
i have realized that it is time for some changes in my life. and i think that will me one of mine.
i will not surround myself with people who do not respect me and what i stand for.
hmm things feel better already.
ha ha ha. it is nice hearing from people back home. i love it.
it is funny because last summer was the beginning of my true transition from a teenager to an adult. there were many times that i hated it, but even more that i loved. the best part of growing up are the times when you mess up because that is when you truly grow.
my tacky outbursts and callous comments have taught me to hold my tongue because i have learned that i really do hurt some people. sometimes i need to just be to myself because there are people who actually need to get stuff done. but hey that is me, i love to be involved with people that is how i work. so i learned how to start to temper myself and know what is good and when not to.
the reflections that see of myself in those that have replied to my emails is amazing.
i see where i was and where i am now and they were a part in helping me grow. i thank them for that.
people are sheep be the shepard.
it seems like every time i come back from summer vacation everyone looks different and better. i think to myself how come stuff like that never happens to me. i have looked the same since i was like 5 years old.
you know in high school you had those summers when you would come back and find that everyone has changed and you probably have too. well that was not the case for me. and that is still the case now.
why is that i find myself asking why am i so different. can't i come back from just one summer vacation looking better then when i started. just once i would like that.
well here's to wishing.
what is that. she does it because she knows i hate it. there is something wrong with that. she knows sign-language and can say things to me that i do not understand. i do not think that i like that.
so now i guess that i will have to learn so i know what she is saying.
i hate him. why does he act like this.
it sucks when you take backseat to everything else in the world. sometimes i wish that i wasn't his son. he hurts me so much.
it is interesting how everything form his first marriage has become unimportant to him. he doesn't talk to my mom unless to argue. my brother had a tumor the size of a bracelet jewelery case between his first and second bones in his neck. did you know what he wasn't even going to come for the surgery.
he laughs at me when i tell him my dreams and aspirations. who does that. you can't support your sons that are your own flesh and blood.
oh but what he can support is he current wife, stepmom, and my little sister oh yea she is adopted. i am not saying that i do not love her as a matter of fact i have a pic of her in my room and countless on my computer.
the two that are part of him (me and my lil bro) he treats like bastard children and the aforementioned women like queens.
to be the one person in his current family that he has known the longest it is a shame. i am like shit to him and that is hard to take. i guess the only good thing is that when i am free of him he will never hear from me again.
i guess that is the only thing that i have to look forward to because right now i am in some serious pain.
trusting someone is the hardest thing to do. it is what everyone craves.
the funny thing is that when you trust someone they almost inevitably end up hurting you, causing you not to want to trust someone else.
then everyone is upset because you don't trust them. but should that necessarily be the case? i don't think so. i think that people should prove to you why you should trust them and then take it to heart.
trust isn't something that is just given out, it needs to be earned and once earned needs to be valued. people can only be hurt so many times before they give up. without trust you can only get as far as people can throw you.
don't let that be your existance because and existance like that is a pathetic one.
i bet you want the goodies, bet you thought about it. got you all hot and bothered because i talk about it. you looking for the goodies keep on looking cuz they stay in the jar. oh oh oh oh yea.
a sig i am, that is right i am finally writing about my fraternity. i love these guys, they are awesome.
for some people they feel that going greek is about buying friends, or partying, or everything that you have seen in the movie animal house.
well for me it is much much more than that. it is a group of guys that all share the same ideals and all uphold seven standards; a man of good character, a student of fair ability, with ambitious purposes, a congenial disposition, possessed of good morals, having a high sense of honor and a deep sense of personal responsibility. we are always striving to improve upon these standards which we hold dear to our hearts.
we all share these bonds of brotherhood and know and understand that this is just more than an excuse to get together and drink. these are the men in which you can feel comfortable telling your secrets to and knowing that it is ok. they are there in your darkest hour and in your moment of triumph.
this group of men knows that there is a value in the differences in people and they embrace it. they strive for what is best and know that they are here to improve upon what we have been left.
my creed: i will try to always find the positive in everything. be honest and trusting towards all. find the beauty in all things because everything is beautiful. recognize that i am the only one keeping me from greatness. know that there is always someone who is better than me and that it is my responsibility to help those that are not as skilled as me. love unconditionally. not let negative emotions get the best of me. smile. stop, if i find myself arguing over something trivial.shut up if i am angry, for it is better to hold my tongue than to say something that i will regret later.
all of us have one, a creed that is, and that is mine. we hold true to these things that we find dearest to ourselves and since they are so, they are dear to my brothers as well. in other words it is our personal journey to achieve something greater than what we are at this moment in time that causes each other to grow. we hold each other accountable for our actions and expect the same back. thus living up to the jordan standard, the points of which are listed above.
what i know is that men like these are hard to come by. and that we are all here for a purpose, lets embrace that and know that what we are here to do is to uphold the standards of which we all possess and grow from the knowledge of others.
i am proud to be a sig, and i forever am Sigma Chi.
my old coworker reminds me of my best female friend at shool. she is sassy and all of those other things if you know either one of them you understand. they remind me so much of each other and it is hilarious.
what is really strange is that they are even going through the same type of things at the same time. it is scary. one wrote a note to JM and the other to JB and the first names of the guys are the same. both of which were also goodbye.
it is amazing how you surround yourseslf with the same type of people no matter where you go. these two are over a thousand miles away and it is like i picked up where i left off.
i think that these two should talk one day beacue i think that it would be awesome. just as long as it is not about me that is all that i ask.
well to both of you. you are great people and there is so much waiting for you. go get em' tiger.
