life of a junior college student

monday-wake up, go to class on time, eat lunch, track practice, study, video games sleep. favorite moment...none.

tuesday-wake up late (no class till 12), print out notes and homework, class, lab, come late to practice, eat, shower, homework, study, movie, bed. favorite moment...convincing my chemistry teacher i am not crazy.

wednesday-wake up, miss a class because i did not set my alarm clock right, skip lunch, class, bio lab, practice, eat dinner, shower, play video games and watch a movie. favorite moment...pulling frog eggs apart.

thrusday-wake up, class, eat, track practice, lab, work and write on blog site. favorite moment...pulling my hamstring, no not really.

friday-wake up, go to class on time, eat lunch, study for a bit, go to track practice and do nothing since i just pulled my hamstring, shower, eat, study some more, got to be early. favorite moment..if it follows anythign like the rest of the week probably none.

saturday-wake up at 5 so i can get ready for the track meet that i will probably not be running in, sit down for 12 hours, ride in a bus for another 4, come home, paooibly party if i feel the need. favorite moment...watching everyone else do something that i love and i cannot.

sunday-wake up, do some homework, study, go to chapter, get breakfast somewhere in the middle of all that, more homework after chapter, dinner, CHURCH, movie and sleep. favorite moment..church.

yea i got this idea from here.

The Workingest Girl

chain of command

so you know you always complain to your superiors, yea i do not have that.

it has been this ongoing thing with me this year, well i think for a couple of years. i need to talk to someone and i do not know who it should be. i have spread myself around in a way that i can only talk to certain people about certain things, well now there are a conglomeration of issues that are all intertwined and no one knows about all of them.

i cannot talk to my younger brother, he is not ready for that, he has his own stuff to deal with. i cannot talk to my little because he cannot understand. everytime i need to talk my big is somewhere else and when he is there i do not want too.

so who is the superior? i am not sure. not a big fan of telling strangers my problems and do not think that the parents need this so i think i am stuck.

it is funny i wish for the problems others have because i feel that they would be more easily remedied. but hey that is just me.

well i guess i should not give the impression that things are all bad. this semester has been going pretty well in terms of school and that is a good thing to start with. my favorite professor loves me and that is even better.

the roommate still cracks me up. you know what i have written about him in a long time. maybe i will do that tomorrow. hahaha that is awesome.

so i guess there are a lot of positives going on right now. i am learning to make myself happy again and that is a big thing for me. right now i can only go up and that is the best thing of all.

hey like Winston Churchill said "if you are going through hell, keep going" i will have to agree.

when the past finds the present

wow!!! (those are for you fred, hahahaha) i have not see this person in 6 years, and what happenes i see him at a track meet.

the real kicker is that he walks up to me and calls me by my whole name, and that is right i do not remember. not until after he took his hood off did i recognize him but i did not know his last name. i felt like a complete jerk. he even got the state that i moved back too when i left bloomington. what is that, well needless to say i felt like an ass.

for you who know me i know what you are thinks (that is right you are an ass) well i am sorry. but it was just weird cuz it caught me off guard, i did not know what to do. but then we got to talking and it was nice.

it is good to catch up with the people that you were once friends with. he made me smile and it was nice. oh yea and speaking of reconnecting there is a certain liz i should probably send an email too.

well here is to old friends. (that was a toast everyone, that means raise you glasses and take a drink, say clink if there is no one there to toast with.)

i am crazy hahaha

where am i?

so yea i do not know what i am doing right now...i start with one thing and change to another. where am i and what am i doing?

i find myself asking that questino more and more often now and i do not know what to make of it. i think in someways i am lost and in others i am on top of my game. it is a weird feeling i have decided and i do not know if i like it or not.

hmmm i feel that i do not know what i am doing with myself. is that wrong to feel like that? is it ok? i do not know what to make of it and is that ok?

i find that the more i ask questions to find the answer all it does is lead to more questions and i feel like i am not getting anywhere with anything. i guess that all of it will come with time, but what if it doesn't? where will i be then?

am i prepared for that outcome? i do not think that i am ready now. will i ever be? what is with all of the questions? where am i going with all of this?

this is what i feel like i am doing all of the time. is this healthy? is it normal? hmm i really do not know. i guess i will have to settle for that right now and try and think of an answer tomorrow.

good night.

oh yea if school is for the smart people why do i have idiots living right next door? (no not you rishboo and erok)

1, 2, step

this beat is automatic, supersonic, hyponitic, funky fresh, work my body, so melodic, this beat rolls right through my chest, everyboby ma and pappi came to party, grabs somebody, work your body, let me see you 1, 2, step.

rock it, don't stop it, everybody get on the floor. break the party up, we about to get it off. let me see you 1,2 step, i love it when you 1,2 step, everybody 1,2 step, we about ti get it off.

this beat is outrageous, so contageous, make you crave it, jazzi made it. so retarded, top charted, ever since the dance started, strut myself and yes i flaunt it, goodies make the boys jump on it. no i can't control myself, now let me do my 1,2 step.

rock it, don't stop it, everybody get on the floor. break the party up, we about to get it off. let me see you 1,2 step, i love it when you 1,2 step, everybody 1,2 step, we about ti get it off.

it don't matter to me, we can dance slow. which ever way the beat drop our bodies will go. so swing it over here mr dj, and we will we will rock you. it don't matter to me, we can dance slow. which ever way the beat drop our bodies will go. so swing it over here mr dj, and we will we will rock you.

(missy)- i shake it like jello, make the boys say hello, cuz you know i'm rockin' the beat. i know you heard about a lotta great mc's, but they aint got nothin on me. because im five foot two, i wanna dance with you and i'm sophisticated fun. i eat filet mingnon, and im nice and young, best believe im number one.

rock it, don't stop it, everybody get on the floor. break the party up, we about to get it off. let me see you 1,2 step, i love it when you 1,2 step, everybody 1,2 step, we about ti get it off.

ciara.

my little is great

hahahaha

my little brother cracks me up. sometimes he reminds me of a little child but in a good way. he just told me something that i have knowm for a very long time and knew was coming. but it is funny and nice that he has enough respect for me to tell me anyways.

he likes my last ex which is good for him, i am sure they will be happy. but it was great non-the-less. it made my night and that is a good thing. he is funny.

hey shelf-butt (insert sound-effects here)this is great and see i told you. hahaha but we need to talk.

with a saddened heart

a president, a brother and most of all a friend, he leaves us. i wish you the best my brother in all that this year may bring you. good luck and i hope that the peace in which you seek, you find.

we all love you and we will deeply miss you. everyone in this chapter has been effected by you and in spirit you will always be here. be strong in new ventures for the fruits of them will be the best that you have ever tasted.

this is not the end, it is a transition that you have chosen to make and in making that decision although you think is selfish is anything but. you taking this time not only allows you to find what you are looking for but will allow you be become a better friend, brother, president and companion to all in your life. (they do not all apply to one person) you will find that part of you which will make you whole and nothing would make us happier than to see that.

i will miss you phil, we will miss you.

farewell but not for too long.

improved...but not new

that is right tomorrow starts my last semester as a junior. well i guess that is kind of a stupid statement because i only have two semesters as a junior. but i am goin to make it anyways.

this year has gone by so quickly and it is strange like that. i am looking forward to what this year has to bring because i feel that it is goin to be a good one. ok enough with all of the sappy stuff.

you know what i have found that i really do not like. the airport. i mean come one now. what is this. espically sea-tac. i do not think that i have ever been in an airport with the dumbest security. i feel that they would do me more harm that anyone on the plane. hahaha but serioursly what is this?

when leaving to go down to california something was wrong in one of the security lines, so instead of stopping that one and letting people go through the rest of them this is what they do they shut them all down. now can someone please tell me what is the meaning of this? frankly i am baffled and so were the security guards in line which made me laugh.

ahh well it is time to finish the registration.

there is nothing worse than bad chinese food except bad mexican food. (by the way there are two of my favorites, well not bad food but good mexican and chinese food)