hesitation

so i do not knwo what i am doing right now. i thought that i would want to do this marketing thing but the more i think about it the less i like it. esssentially it is like telemarketing but going door to door instead. that does not sound like me at all and is really nothing that i would like to do.

on top of that i think that it is taking me further and further from what i want to do and that is cook. so maybe i will see what my dad has to offer me in los angeles instead. granted i really do not wanna be in the same city but it is a large one so i think i could hide from him pretty well and we will see what happens.

but in the mean time you what i have found is the new thing that really gets under my skin...stupid people. no and i do not mean people that are not smart but people who do stupid things. like the other day this guy decides to go have sex in someone elses house while they are having a party. come on there is a thing called TACT...USE IT!!!!

and other things like that. i have a theory that there are too many people in the world and so if someone wants to hurt themselves let them. i know that is a horrible thing to say but think about it if they did it to themselves they would not be puttiong others in harms way which tends to happen when someone else decides to get involved.

i know i am an insensitive a$$ but think about it...just for a moment and as much as you do not want to admit it i am sure that you have had the same thoughts as me. and plus it is better than talking politics.