no man is an island...right?

as my life has gotten progressively better, one thing has come into sharp relief, i have never connected to a single person. i have gotten close to people before but i want more than that.

i watch all of my friends and their lives, never envious but always happy for them. i think if you were to ask me that 2 months ago i would have said something else.

sitting at home watching tv, or a movie i want someone there. i love to be alone but at the same time i want someone there you know what i mean. not as an accessory or anything like that, but to be a companion.

someone to just lay witha nd talk at all hours of the night, someone who will call me or i can call just because, someone strong, compassionate, intelligent and creative. gentle and patient.

i feel like a tropical island, people stay there for a short time but then they leave and might not return until the next year. i want to feel connected to someone.

kinda a depression way to end, so a little ditty i came up with...

ok so i forgot it and i think it was stupid, but i would want them to laugh it and think it was cute none the less.