horoscope

capricorn, aquarius, pices, aries, taurus, gemini, cancer, leo, virgo, lybra, scorpio, sagitarius all of your hororscopes are the same. THIS WEEK WILL SUCK.

well at least that is what it seems right now will all of those that i am close too and care for. one person is not getting recognized at work for all of the effort that they have put into their job while those around them are getting promoted. another did not get into medical school, has to break it off with a married woman he is seeing (well that is his fault), and a bookshelf landed on his head. another has lost two family members in as many days.

i do not know what is going on right now but with a week like this i know one thing is for certain, next week will be amazing.

its all about me

so i think it is all about me for a little. now i know i like to pretend that it is always about me but this time i am for real.

i let everyone do what they will and that is not good i am not a doormat. so anyways i started my new outlook by buying myself something nice just for me that i could eat. that was fun. but now i am just gonna treat myself to everything that i really want and that includes what i really want to tell people and how i want to act.

oh yea for all you hateful people out there i am sorry that you suck and i am amazing but hey there is nothing that i can really do about something like that. i am sorry you suck but oh well that is the way life is huh.

and for everyone else take care and much love.

hesitation

so i do not knwo what i am doing right now. i thought that i would want to do this marketing thing but the more i think about it the less i like it. esssentially it is like telemarketing but going door to door instead. that does not sound like me at all and is really nothing that i would like to do.

on top of that i think that it is taking me further and further from what i want to do and that is cook. so maybe i will see what my dad has to offer me in los angeles instead. granted i really do not wanna be in the same city but it is a large one so i think i could hide from him pretty well and we will see what happens.

but in the mean time you what i have found is the new thing that really gets under my skin...stupid people. no and i do not mean people that are not smart but people who do stupid things. like the other day this guy decides to go have sex in someone elses house while they are having a party. come on there is a thing called TACT...USE IT!!!!

and other things like that. i have a theory that there are too many people in the world and so if someone wants to hurt themselves let them. i know that is a horrible thing to say but think about it if they did it to themselves they would not be puttiong others in harms way which tends to happen when someone else decides to get involved.

i know i am an insensitive a$$ but think about it...just for a moment and as much as you do not want to admit it i am sure that you have had the same thoughts as me. and plus it is better than talking politics.

what a wonderful world

so here is an update seeing as that i have not written anything in a while. so i went out to san francisco to get a job and i gots one. not only did i get one but after only about 6 months of b!@#h work i get to stop doing that and get trained to become a manager.

what is even better is that i have a place to STAY!!! it is in daly city which is about 10 min away and it is with some co-workers. that is co cool to say right now. so that is good, and i am happy.

but now here comes the hard part. i have to get home and then get packed and then get all of my stuff out here and whatnot like that so i can live there. so i have to do a lot of work in the next couple of days but it is so worth it. do you not agree? so anyways it is time for me to say my final farewells to bloomington, illinois well the whole mid-west to be exact and move my little but west.

starting a life as a college graduate on my own. wow how romantic is that. so critic would think that i grew up with shakesphere or read a lot of him. neither of which is true. but romantic books (as in books from the romantic era, not softcore porn) are a pleasure to read. just a side note. well off to get my life together.

and a happy new year...

well it is the first day of the new year and what am i doing? sitting
in my bed because i am sick...talk about a great vacation this turned
out to be huh? well anyways this has been an interesting time for me
right now seeing as that i amgraduated and all.

i have jobs
lined up and all that jazz but i think i am scared that i am not going
to get one and i am afraid of failing. so i think i am keeping myself
from succeeding which is just as bad i guess. so this is a dilemma that
i have right now.

dilemma, that is a song by nelly with kelly rowland in it...maybe i will listen to it tonight.

but i have now gotten a chance to catch up on all of the tv
shows that i have not gotten to see in the past couple of weeks. i
guess life could be worse and i hope that things work out well soon.

oh yea eh-bull-ly-bah-dee have a happy new year

melt away

you come to me with a casual flow and suddenly, my defences start to go. when you talk to me in that sensual tone, it envelops me and i lose my self control. and baby, i just melt away, fall like rain. everytime i see your face, i go off. i just want to break it down, anytime you come around. maybe i could melt away in your arms.

imagining that your taking it slow, and so tenderly, till the feeling overflows. when you look at me I go soft and cave in, and i can't conceal that I'm slowly weakening. and baby, i just melt away, fall like rain. everytime i see your face, i go off. i just want to break it down, anytime you come around. maybe i could melt away in your arms.

you and me in a cloud of reverie, spin around inside my head unendingly. thoughts run wild as i sit and rhapsodize, pretty pictures of what i'd do if you were mine. and baby, i just melt away, fall like rain. everytime i see your face, i go off. i just want to break it down, anytime you come around. maybe i could melt away in your arms.

hello

i've been alone with you inside my mind. and in my dreams i've kissed your lips a thousand times. i sometimes see you pass outside my door. hello, is it me you're looking for? i can see it in your eyes. i can see it in your smile. you're all i've ever wanted, my arms are open wide. 'cause you know just what to say. and you know just what to do. and i want to tell you so much, i love you ...

i long to see the sunlight in your hair. and tell you time and time again how much i care. sometimes i feel my heart will overflow. hello, i've just got to let you know.
'cause i wonder where you are, and i wonder what you do. are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you? tell me how to win your heart, for i haven't got a clue. but let me start by saying, i love you ...

hello, is it me you're looking for? 'cause i wonder where you are, and i wonder what you do. are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you? tell me how to win your heart, for i haven't got a clue. but let me start by saying ...

I love you.

back with a vengence

joanne albers has stuck again! in the past two days five people have died...wow that is kinda bad and i feel bad for everyone that this effects. now funny story only one of them affects the people who attend this school right now because a prefessor did just pass.

that was the worst one of all.

but honestly stuff like a graduate of 10+ years ago passing...how does that effect my life!?!?!?!?! i did not know him, and i am sure most of the people attending this school did not know him. mainly staff would have known him and i am pretty sure that their response would be like, oh that is sad my condolences to the family...and that is about it.

other than reminding us about constant death around us what is she good for?? well that is if she really exists.

oh yea did i mention that i might have gotten a job...we will discuss this more if i find that it is set in stone, but until then keep your fingers crossed.

thanks-taking

this is the time of year when we should all give thanks for everything around us. our fredom, the sun, the sky, air to breathe, food to eat, friedns, families and great loves...well i think it is time for thanks-taking.

you know i think it is that time of year where everyone should be thanking you for all of the stuff you had to put up with from them. how you are an amazing child, sibling, parent, grandparent or other relative, friend, foe (those are fun too) or love...

people should be gratefl to bask in your glory, that you bestow your grace upon them. only then will thanksgiving (thanks0taking in some people's cases) be what it is supposed to be.

by the way the people like me who are thanks-taking you know who you are and you are freaking MAGNIFESCENT!!!!

that thing...

guys you know you better WATCH OUT, some girls, some girls are only about that thing, that thing, that thi-i-i-ing, that thing, that thing, that thi-i-i-ing.

girls you know you better WATCH OUT, some guys, some guys are only about that thing, that thing, that thi-i-i-ing, that thing, that thing, that thi-i-i-ing.

the story of my life right now? hmmm let me think about that for a minute...NOPE. no one i know is about that thing right now. but oh well what can you do?

yea i know kinda boring today